oh my god...

school holidays are like the mosrt boring thign ever.

nothing to do -.- apart from go out with friend.. but even that gets boreding most time at the end

so.. this is what i have to resort to! spending my free time whining to computer..

yes a computer since no ones reads all the rubbish..

*sigh* oh well

listening to aiden atm... can't wait for the gig..

erm...

what else to put?

oh screw it.. and i cba spell checking this time so whatever.

Hiya guys,

hows it going?
good i hope ^^   me?
aww so nice you asked, but i'm glad you did...... haha

well thing are going alright i guess, kerrang tour was like.. totally sick ^^ mad and well yeah

erm.. me and tina going alright, wanted to meet up next week but parents won't take me ¬¬
aaah well they say they'll tek me when they get paid, last day this month so woot?

giging news.. going two gigs in april, aiden and ava. in manchester =D

ermm.

my need for sex is an all time high and i see now decline comnig soon tbh ah well

thats about it

cya for nowxxxx

Sup guys

sorry for not writing for awhile even though no one reads.

News update?

Me and Tina back together in a sense… this time I’m not doing the whole

'I wanna know where we stand' thing screw it

i really like her and that’s that.. reminds me to ask my mum about seeing her soon.

anywhoo man my mind has been truly messed up over these weeks
I’m not gonna say what thoughts have been going through but they had messed me up big style.

(nothing to do with suicide) to get that out of the way.

ermm.. hmmm

WoW (world of warcraft) is boring me now.

ermm..
I’m more desperate for sex than ever? with Tina to be more precise haha

hmmm Kerrang tour 08 (that a music gig) in 7 days woot.

bout it for now

laters guys

I dunno why i'm writing this today tbh

nothing intresting has happened so.... look like your just gonna bear with me
as i ramble on about random stuff
 pie

now that, thats done.. oh tina's been flirting..

well not fliritng.. saying "you complete me" is a bit much for 'just' flirting..

+ bad thing is, when i put my foot down and say we should just be friends..me saying it back isn't excalty being strong is it?

*sigh* there is something about her =\

oh well

LOL was talking to jordan about my sexualty yesterday, was weird haha

ermmm...

well i've ran out of things to say

no! /begin rant
john, lou etc want me to come out tonight, gawwwd
what is the point getting drunk on the streets? it annoys me! if i go..
1. it's a bloody long walk, 40-50 mins
2. i have to be in by 9... and they probs expect me to be there at 8. you do the maths
3. i don't wanna drink on the streets
4. thus i'll be the only, there no drunk
5. bubba  will probs be there drunk trying to get off with me
6. i don't wanna full stop.

so yeah 6 points. i think thats a fairy gd 'fuck you' to them eh?

well that deffo it for now <3
laters

Yup I’m back, and safe and sound

no physical scares on me from new years eve =)
but no doubt my mass of no existent fans will want a low down on what happen

so here I goes.

I spent my night going with the coloured gay guy called bubba;
according to the past posts this should be great, and I would of, if
1) he didn't taste of fag ash
2)he wasn't drunk
3) he didn't have beer breath (as well as the ash)
4) he wasn't all over me every bloody second.. seem like he was trying to erode my tongue with his
5) didn't ask me if I 'was ok'; ironically the more he asked and attack me with his lips.. The more I was annoyed and wasn't ok

I ended up hiding in the toilet for every so often. To avoid him =\

in relation to him being drunk, I wasn't drunk.. About when I was getting drunk.. I stop drinking, and stuck to coke =]

and well that only half of the shit that happened, hehe
my friend (who was throwing the part) got drunk, and made out with a 26 year old, pissed out of his face, guy. She’s 14, and the guy is her mums, best friend's brother. So that causes massive argument and everyone going mad a people crying and such.

Also the same girl is going out with my one of my best mates, and she did it right it front of her.

Then she proceeds to make out with him after that.. Then her other friends were fighting..

Then.. Hmm.. We were all trying to get to sleep. Jordan (the best mate) was like passed out on one of the chairs. I was on another.. And Louise (the girl from before) was on the floor making out with one of her friends! Right behind passed out Jordan’s back..

Man some shit happen... and all her mate that she was going with.. Was meant to really like another of my friends.. And she was like right next to them.. So she was upset then

so then I end up cuddling her.. When really I’m not meant to like her? Oh well haha

then she's upset so she rings her mum to go home.. Offers me a lift so I take it.

We ask Jordan but he says no.

So I’m home at half 5 trying to sleep on the sofa

aaaah. What a night eh? And also when Jordan woke up in the morning he heard/saw his gf Louise, going with that guy again (her friend no the 26 year old)

so in the end.. I have the guy on my heels.. That I don't want.. I dunno I wouldn't mind sas.. But she likes Jordan, Louise and Jordan have sorted it out and they still going out..
Jordan went round to sas's yesterday and they messed about... I wasn't invited.

So yeah, I got/I’ve got nothing -.-

oh well

and to top it off..

Me and Tina were talking yesterday and she started getting in to me again..
I know I shouldn't but fuck it, I did it back, and it's not like if I’m doing it back because I have to.. Naah ofc I like her still.. Anyone who has read my pas post and not known that is a tard.

And with that I’m go. Till next time people.xx

A big hi to all my viewers out there! You keep me going! Yeeeah!
(To the incredibly thick people out there, this is something called… sarcasm)

Anywhoo on with the blog!

Right, first of all, went Manchester yesterday with callum and Jordan, got some new jeans =]
Red skinny ones ^^ and a skinny blue t-shirt with 'rabbit mafia' on it =D SICK MATE haha

Oh, I also got checked out by the girl when I bought my skinny's =]
Gd little self esteem boost there, for a whole 2 second… by the time i realised i hadn't got her name etc…
So yeah.

Anyway in relation to the title 'how' i am referring to how people say in
All day and do nothing

Seriously how do you do it? How can you sit at home and watch TV for hours on end

Jesus i feel like ending my life! I need to be doing something,
For instance, going to Manchester.

*sigh*

Oh well i can't think of anything else to talk about

Except that my life is truly boring the shit out of me
I’m sick of being alone… in the terms of not having a gf/bf
Sick of that fact that my experience with a gf/bf is crap
Even more sick at the bf bit…
And…

I need sex

Apart from that life is Fyn O_O

Right now i really am going. Gotta get ready for going out to tea.

Later peoples

Typical!

wanted to go Manchester today but *looks outside*
it's raining.. not stopped me other time but , really, it's not a shower this time

it's rain =\

Anyway, oh, i dunno what to write now hmm...

OH

update on me and Tina? not that you all care... LOL? not that anyway reads this anyway xD but hey! someone might want a laugh or something and read this..

anywhoo yeah yesterday.. waiting for ever for tina to bloody come on like, chatting to gemma while a waiting helped me calmed me etc. ( not in the dirty way pervs..) but yeah she finally comes on. and I just like

sorry for yesterday, but you told me to make a decision.. so, friends?

and bam! slick move Simon yeaah

that yeah that leave me a free man =D not that there is anyone out there I have a chance with but hey!

whats life without a bit of hope eh?

guess that enough for now i guess so

laters people.xx

Much love simon <3

Yup so christmas is finnaly over

hurrah?
hope you had a merry one =)

mine was ok, gd some kewl stuff, bit of money, gd dinner, gd time with family etc etc

then i'm on computer.. and tina's online, hurray!

ends up, i sort of slot in what i talked about more? in '2 post in one day'  blog..

and we have a massive argument...   she was all like 'fyn simon i don't care do what you want'

and i was like 'FFS! i'm bloody waiting for you! make up your mind'

'OH i can never make up my mind bla bla bla'

i should of said sorry but.. tbh i'm not in the wrong here.. in the middle of the argumment she was saying 'oh simon i don't wanna think about this right now'

i knew i should backed down but wtf! i'd been bloody chasing after we or god knows how long so i just went 'FYN! how long you wanna wait, days? weeks? months?, this isn't gonna go away!'

long story short.. she basically told me to fuck off.. so i did...

havn't talked since O_O (it was about 8ish last night)

so yeah..... i still dunno what to do since all she did was have a go at me for some unknown reason

ah screw it all.

Well.. now that my head is somewhat, a bit clearer from my emotion break down yesterday,

i noticed it was christmas eve,, OOOH you said! only one day from christmas *girly scream*

but am i the only one who just doesn't care? it's like...nothing new.. i've had christmas for 14 years... (yeah i'm 15... the next one will be my 15th)

it's just not that intresting this year...my and bro have had our crimbo prezzie up in the attic for weeks... (we have a converted attic.. meaning you can go up and we have a floor.. sofa , tv, and computer)

and i've played it like ever day... and we've used most of our crimbo money for a new moniter for it...so whats to be excited for? getting a bunch of useless crap that i'll never use.. and i'll only disapoint the people who give them by not using them..
i have everything i need? well material wize.. kinda..
you get my point....it's just so much fuss for one day.... and i shouldn't even be celebrating it! most people shouldn't..

people don't see. it's not a nasional holiday.. it's a christian holiday! are you a proper christian? i'm not..

ask yourself... are you really celebrating jesus's birth, or you juswt using it as a excuse for prezzie? pretty selfish if you ask me =\

or maybe i'm just getting older.. i mean wasn't excited about my birthday either..loads of people at school when it's their birthday 'OOOMG IT'S MY BIRTH DAY... OMG WISH MY HAPPY BIRTHDAY *they do*AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW THANKK YOU!!' i just wanna slap the crap out of them and tell em to grow up *sigh*

yup.. i'm deffo an old man now ..

ah well,

well that enough ranting for now.. i'll probs think of something else to rant about later so

till then.x <3

no I’m not..

I just got to get this out of my head..

right I’ll tell you a little story, no screw that

i dunno how to get this out.. but it’s screwing my head so bad.

RIGHT

i know a girl, called Tina. me and her are like best friend. no.. we're are like.. boyfriend and girlfriend. but we're not. Make sense? no? tough work it out.
anyway i like her. i like her so much that i wanna do,.. i dunno but i really like her. she like me i hope.. we she must, can't of been out with me 4 times.. met up with me.. and stayed friends for me for 2 years for nothing eh?. anyway at the moment we act just like we're havin a long distance internet relationship. we talk all the time, say we love you to each other, and have... "fun". sound all fun and pretty eh?. yeah well here come the emo part. i want to be with her so bad, but there is this thing.. she once said.. (not to long ago, in November this year) when i kinda asked her out for like the 5 th time.. 'Simon i don't think i could ever go out with you again.. i couldn't put us both through all of it again'. fine and dandy! i don't partially wanna go through getting my heart ripped out again either. but here the twist.. remember what i said at the beginning? "we're are like.. boyfriend and girlfriend." why say that.. then go and act like she wants to be with me ahhh!!!
here's another thing.. even though i'm not with her.. i'm still loyal to her, if some girl came up to me and asked me if i want to fuck her.. (don't get me wrong i'm not a perv but i'm a guy for god sake (sorry Christians) i'm a boy/man with needs! and well yeah as i said.. i'm a boy/man who never had much "fun" and wouldn't mind havin ago) i would bloody say no!, because i'm.. i dunno i would feel that i was betraying tina.. and also.. i didn't mention this before did i? but i'm bi-curious.. meaning that i'm straight.. kinda ..err.. w/e i'm basically wanna have a bash at some guy on guy.. (in relationship sense not just "fun") and I feel this.. whole thing with her is somewhat holding me back?

i dunno what to do.... should i be i waiting for her? or moving on?
i wanted to talk to her before but.. her auntie’s in hospital and it might be cancer and she's upset etc.. and it's so close to Christmas.. so I can’t go and bring this down on her can i?

*sigh* i hate my life sometime...

well.. if anyone ever bothered reading this in time..

leave a comment.. share the love for a confused chap will yah?

laters.xx